The Rotary of My Temperance
Well today was one of those roller coaster days. Spent more than half of it stressing myself out... Why I say "myself" is because there usually isn't anything worth stressing out about, that I'm stressing about... Let's see, I'm terribly broke... I decided to postpone my ambitions of furthering my education until I can become more financial stable, all the while conserving my vehicle... By destroying it, and I'm growing increasingly impatient over solitude... Irregardless, I could sit and have a pity party all day. I choose not to, but sometimes it is terribly hard to pull yourself out of the slump. Must I remind myself Luke 6:21-22 "Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted."
The turning point in my day didn't come until I realized that I was making sacrifices. To those I long, to ambitions I seek, to wrongs I speak... I put end to one another, following the narrow path the Lord has set under my feet. Fulfillment came upon the realization that I am living by the Word, Luke 9:23 "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." Unfortunately, made aware unto my impatient self, It looks like this may take some time. Patience, perseverance, and faith... I must learn to live in this fashion, and still my anxious heart (thanks Natalie Grant). I must see the fault and deviation even in my understandings of goodness. It's funny how I can call my faults, even before the fact, before the fall, before the engagement even arises. Hallelujah for recovery? Thought so...
Sometimes we disobey what God has strictly ordered us, because we cannot see and feel Him (sometimes). Even amongst personal situations. He instructs me one way, I go the other. Even in honoring Him, I still am rebellious. Just another dumb human... Don't get me wrong, My life is in accordance to the Spirit. But what caught my eye today, in that my favorite of verses (Galatians 5:19-24). "Dissensions", Wow, How might I be responsible for causing Dissensions? That took thought, and in pondering could actually think of a few guilty methods. Christians, Let us come under speculation amongst ourselves. Let us hold ourselves accountable to God's holy standard, and live by it. Leave our wants and desires at His feet. He will prosper us, beyond our most glorious expectations... I'm definitely familiar with understanding my foolish nature... "God you may have ultimate control of this vehicle I know as life, just turn around and shut me up when I ask 'Are we there yet?'".
Anyway, aside from all that... I joined the church choir tonight... AND I LOVE IT! This put a smile on my face and a joy in my heart. This completed the full circle of today's ups and downs. And until tomorrow, when this world attempts to bring me down, I hold complete authority over whether or not it does... And blessed be the fact that when I am down, I may always sing a song of praise to my Savior. For all he's done for me, and rejoice over the fact that even in my desperation and discontent there is hope. :)
The turning point in my day didn't come until I realized that I was making sacrifices. To those I long, to ambitions I seek, to wrongs I speak... I put end to one another, following the narrow path the Lord has set under my feet. Fulfillment came upon the realization that I am living by the Word, Luke 9:23 "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." Unfortunately, made aware unto my impatient self, It looks like this may take some time. Patience, perseverance, and faith... I must learn to live in this fashion, and still my anxious heart (thanks Natalie Grant). I must see the fault and deviation even in my understandings of goodness. It's funny how I can call my faults, even before the fact, before the fall, before the engagement even arises. Hallelujah for recovery? Thought so...
Sometimes we disobey what God has strictly ordered us, because we cannot see and feel Him (sometimes). Even amongst personal situations. He instructs me one way, I go the other. Even in honoring Him, I still am rebellious. Just another dumb human... Don't get me wrong, My life is in accordance to the Spirit. But what caught my eye today, in that my favorite of verses (Galatians 5:19-24). "Dissensions", Wow, How might I be responsible for causing Dissensions? That took thought, and in pondering could actually think of a few guilty methods. Christians, Let us come under speculation amongst ourselves. Let us hold ourselves accountable to God's holy standard, and live by it. Leave our wants and desires at His feet. He will prosper us, beyond our most glorious expectations... I'm definitely familiar with understanding my foolish nature... "God you may have ultimate control of this vehicle I know as life, just turn around and shut me up when I ask 'Are we there yet?'".
Anyway, aside from all that... I joined the church choir tonight... AND I LOVE IT! This put a smile on my face and a joy in my heart. This completed the full circle of today's ups and downs. And until tomorrow, when this world attempts to bring me down, I hold complete authority over whether or not it does... And blessed be the fact that when I am down, I may always sing a song of praise to my Savior. For all he's done for me, and rejoice over the fact that even in my desperation and discontent there is hope. :)
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