I am the Source of My Own Problems

I am the source of my own problems...  Any bout of depression, any moment of misjudgment, any bleak outlook, any act of rebellion, any expression of unbelief, any failure as a husband or a father; that's all my own doing.

You see, when I often find myself in moments of repentance, the same Scripture buzzes around my mind.  Jeremiah 29:13 - "You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart."

Have you ever felt that God's presence just isn't present?  Has His voice gone silent?  Has His goodness seemingly departed?  Has His joy left your soul?  Has your love for Him drawn cold?  Has your desire for holiness turned to a desire for sin?

Have you sought Him?  Have you sought Him with your whole heart?

I haven't...

I've let everything in this world come in and crowd Him out;

The worries, the distractions, the fleeting pleasures, the work, the family, the money, the politics, the anger, the sorrow, the indifference, the complacency, the comforts...

Perhaps maybe sometimes I sought Him, but I have not sought Him with my whole heart.

And when His voice went silent, and it felt as if He may have not even existed, my heart was tempted toward unbelief.

But, "it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me..." It's that little part of my soul that rebels against my rebellion.  He won't let me depart from Him.  It's how I know He lives.  It's how I know He is mine and I am His.

It is He who lives in me that reminds me, "You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart."

So, seek Him.  Turn off the TV.  Put down the phone.  Take time off.  Go and sin no more.

You know what holds you back...

Seek Him with your whole heart and find Him.